I'm blown away by all of the support that I've been getting lately. I've been calls and emails from friends and family telling me how much they support me and that I shouldn't worry and that I'll beat this thing. At times, it's repetitive saying the same things, that I'm doing fine, I have no symptoms, I'm just being as normal as possible. But, in all cases, it just amazes me how much people are thinking about me.
I feel guilty though. It feels like most people are more worried and shocked than I am. That makes me wonder if I'm not worried enough, or I'm not taking this seriously enough. I'm going through all of the tests and doing my appointments. But in a strange way, I don't feel like I've been shocked or gone through that "Why me?" phase. Or maybe I already did when my first doctor suggested it to be lymphoma. I don't really know. Maybe I'll go through that phase when the chemo starts.
I guess my way of coping is to just not think about it and to just live like normal, as much as I can.
I feel guilty though. It feels like most people are more worried and shocked than I am. That makes me wonder if I'm not worried enough, or I'm not taking this seriously enough. I'm going through all of the tests and doing my appointments. But in a strange way, I don't feel like I've been shocked or gone through that "Why me?" phase. Or maybe I already did when my first doctor suggested it to be lymphoma. I don't really know. Maybe I'll go through that phase when the chemo starts.
I guess my way of coping is to just not think about it and to just live like normal, as much as I can.
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