Valentine's Day

Cancer is a scary thing.  But, I don't feel like I have it.  My only symptom has been this damn lump.  I must admit, I think I may be in the denial phase.  I, at times, think that the oncologist is going to say something like, "Hey, we were wrong."  So, instead of huddling up and preparing for this thing, I'm doing my normal thing, like preparing for the move, or working, or going to dinner for Valentine's day.

I guess it is a bit weird having people call me and tell me that they are supporting me, especially when this feels more like an inconvenience than a disease.  And with all of the hype that this is pretty beatable, I also feel a bit guilty because we've known people who've gone through much worse, and what makes me so special.

But it is cancer and I guess that's not normal. 

I'm so fortunate to have so many people who can support me.  I have so many friends and family members who are in the medical profession.  So, at times, it's a bit overwhelming, especially since I don't really feel that bad.  I think more people are worried than I am.  But I do appreciate the support.  It's going to be a long road ahead and I'm going to need it.

So, at this point, I'm still waiting for the first appointment with the oncologist...still waiting...in the meantime, I'm starting to prepare for the inevitable. 

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