It's been a while since I've written an entry here. There actually hasn't been not much to write about. I had been using this blog only for writing at times when there has been an emotional trigger. And, really, I've not had any of those triggers as of late. I recently got a bag full of stuff from my ex-wife through a friend. There were a few pictures from a trip that we had taken a couple of years ago. It was pretty much easy to just throw those away without any emotion.
I was talking to my therapist about this. I'm really no longer at that point where I need to reflect on things. I'm past that and am at the point where I am more about being active. That's why I don't really write very much any more. Don't need that release. Even this entry is not about a release, but a just because (And, one thing I should point out, is that whenever I did write an entry, I only wrote it because I was feeling something at that particular point in time, but I wasn't feeling that all of the time.)
I was watching Swingers again for the umpteenth time, since it's my absolute favorite flick. And there's that point in the movie where Rob was talking to Mike about how eventually get over it and you kinda miss the pain itself. I guess that's true. In a way, I miss the pain, now. Don't get me wrong. It does hurt sometimes, but very rarely. I still don't care for my ex-wife and what she did. She is not a part of my future and I'm pretty much erasing her from my past. Again, with the Swingers reference, that point where Mike hangs up on his ex when the other girl calls.
So, now what? Life goes on. I have been spending a lot of time out. I met a good group of people to watch the Red Wings games with. I've been active with kickball again. I spend a lot of time with the dog. I've been traveling to Costa Rica for vacation and to Chicago to visit my new nephew. I'm off to Detroit tomorrow for a cousin's wedding in Toronto and in a few weeks a cousin's wedding in Cleveland. At home, I've been working on the landscaping of my house, which has been a lot of fun (much easier than the inside of the house). I've also tried to be active in the dating scene (nothing interesting to report right now). Just feeling normal again. It's pretty cool.
I was talking to my therapist about this. I'm really no longer at that point where I need to reflect on things. I'm past that and am at the point where I am more about being active. That's why I don't really write very much any more. Don't need that release. Even this entry is not about a release, but a just because (And, one thing I should point out, is that whenever I did write an entry, I only wrote it because I was feeling something at that particular point in time, but I wasn't feeling that all of the time.)
I was watching Swingers again for the umpteenth time, since it's my absolute favorite flick. And there's that point in the movie where Rob was talking to Mike about how eventually get over it and you kinda miss the pain itself. I guess that's true. In a way, I miss the pain, now. Don't get me wrong. It does hurt sometimes, but very rarely. I still don't care for my ex-wife and what she did. She is not a part of my future and I'm pretty much erasing her from my past. Again, with the Swingers reference, that point where Mike hangs up on his ex when the other girl calls.
So, now what? Life goes on. I have been spending a lot of time out. I met a good group of people to watch the Red Wings games with. I've been active with kickball again. I spend a lot of time with the dog. I've been traveling to Costa Rica for vacation and to Chicago to visit my new nephew. I'm off to Detroit tomorrow for a cousin's wedding in Toronto and in a few weeks a cousin's wedding in Cleveland. At home, I've been working on the landscaping of my house, which has been a lot of fun (much easier than the inside of the house). I've also tried to be active in the dating scene (nothing interesting to report right now). Just feeling normal again. It's pretty cool.
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