During the divorce, I put all of the pictures that involved my ex on a backup hard drive, which I placed in a safe deposit box in the bank. I did this so I would not be tempted to look at them, for any reason. After over a year, I finally pulled out that hard drive. I was actually looking for my Peru pictures because I wanted to print some of them out. But then I took the opportunity to do something I was ready to do. Delete them.
I dragged the wedding, engagement photos into the trash can.
I watched as the progress bar ticked forward, telling me how many pictures were left to delete.
Poof! Done. Those pictures are now permanently gone. I have no easy way of getting them back.
It wasn't easy to do that. My heart was actually pounding when I did. It still is pounding a little bit. It wasn't pounding because of an emotional connection to the picture or the person in the picture. I don't have that connection. It had to do with the fact that I was deleting a piece of my history. I don't really like the idea of deleting something permanently, even if it's something I need to move on from.
But who would I need to pass my history down to? There is noone.
I also sifted through the rest of the pics to delete her from the albums that I did want to keep. And now, those pics are permanently gone.
Off goes the band-aid. It's done.
I dragged the wedding, engagement photos into the trash can.
I watched as the progress bar ticked forward, telling me how many pictures were left to delete.
Poof! Done. Those pictures are now permanently gone. I have no easy way of getting them back.
It wasn't easy to do that. My heart was actually pounding when I did. It still is pounding a little bit. It wasn't pounding because of an emotional connection to the picture or the person in the picture. I don't have that connection. It had to do with the fact that I was deleting a piece of my history. I don't really like the idea of deleting something permanently, even if it's something I need to move on from.
But who would I need to pass my history down to? There is noone.
I also sifted through the rest of the pics to delete her from the albums that I did want to keep. And now, those pics are permanently gone.
Off goes the band-aid. It's done.